Promises-schomises

So remember that whole thing about eating right no matter what. Let's pretend I never said that shall we?

Breakfast - egg salad and slice of 40cal toast
Lunch - Chicken wrap from McD's and a diet coke
Dinner - a handful of cookies consumed in a moment of panic and self induldgence, steak and arugala salad from Macaroni grill, pomegranite martini, popcorn, 10 sour patch kids

Work has been insane lately - we lost an agent about a month ago, thereby doubling my workload...and then I find out today that my program assistant will be out for 4-6 weeks while her husband recovers from surgery...which means I am now doing the work of three people (oddly enough still only being paid one salary) By about the 16th unreasonable demand this morning I was almost in tears (and on the verge of saying something that I would almost certainly regret once I found myself standing in line for unemployment) when my friend Danette dropped by.

I met Danette (or Uncle Nick as Riley calls her) about 4 years ago when we were both instructors at horse camp. She is in her late 30's, recently divorced, recently saved by southern baptists, and one of the kindest, wisest, most honest women I know. She always knows when I am on the edge and swoops in to talk me down. It is uncanny.

So she comes by this afternoon and wisks me away to McDonalds for a quick bite and then out to her house. I spent my lunch brushing her horse, Nacho. Some one once said that the best thing for the inside of a woman is the outside of a horse and I say "here here". Horses have a profound impact on my mental state and I almost immediatly calmed down and began to see the light.

I weighed in this afternoon - still 205 - so I haven't lost since monday BUT i also haven't gained, which is great given how naughty I have been.

Riley is with my mom and stepfather this weekend which is such a blessing because a) I have to work all day tommorow and trying to work with Riley is worse than chinese water torture and b) I really really really needed a break from him, which is hard to admit because I know I am suppose to Lurve being a mom and lurve being with him but sometime i just really need to have the chance to miss him a little.

After dropping Ri off I met my very dear friend JG (my trophy date at Anna and Nicks wedding) for dinner and a movie tonight. I absolutely adore him, he is one of the few people that I feel like I can be 110% myself with - good bad and ugly, because we are basically the same person or, as he puts it, "birds of a feather, motherfucker". He offered to get my name tatooed on his ass in return for my writing his thesis. Thinking about it.

Now I really really really will get back on track tommorow