A very weighty subject

It is amazing to me how hard it is to be honest about the scale. I would venture to say that very few women actually fess up to their number. I know I never did. I would always round down to the nearest 10. Or use my highschool weight. Or my wishful thinking weight.

No more. Honesty, accountability, and success go hand in hand.

My ideal weight is 140 - I look damn good at 140 (see green hoochy mama shirt pic below). At 140 I wear a size 6. 155-160 is where I use to think I was chubby (I was a size 8-10). My goal weight is 145.

I was 153 when I went for my first pre-natal visit (about 10 weeks along). The day I gave birth I was 225. 6 weeks post partum I was 195 and a size 16. Then life (and alot of key lime pie) happened and between grad school and single parenting and my own special brand of neurosis I shot up to 246 - a size 20, which is what I weighed the day my life changed.

On January 11, 2008 I signed up with Metabolic Research Center with the last drop of hope and optimism I had left to my name. Prior to MRC I had tried Atkins, weight watchers, and South Beach and failed hardcore each time. And with each failure it became so much harder to want to try again. Trying to lose weight is a mean and painful cycle that is impossible to understand unless you have been there. And done that.

So I rallied the troops for one last try before I retired to a life of Mumu's and Hoho's and signed on the dotted line for the MRC program. MRC is a low fat, low carb, high protein program (I call it my just plain old low food program). You adhere to a strict diet - write down everything you eat - and meet with counselor (all certified former fatties) to weigh in and chat 2x/week.

I eat 6oz of protein and 40 calories of carbs for breakfast, 6 oz of protein, 3 oz of veggies, and a small peice of fruit for lunch, and 6oz of protein (see a trend here), 3 oz of veggies, and 40 calories of carbs for dinner. At each meal I also consume a protein drink that taste like Tang. Yummy. I also take a mutivitamin, an herbal supplement, MSM, and flaxseed oil daily.

So here is the great news- IT WORKS. And here is the bad news - You have to stick to it exactly. If I am completely good I can lose 5lbs a week. It is so hard to stay good, but I am hoping this excercise of journaling will help somewhat.

Thus far I am down to 205lbs and am wearing a 14/16. Not bad for 3 months of near starvation. I have lost over 50 inches of extra Meg and am feeling better than I have in a long time. And somehow thinner than I did when I was 195 post baby.

My plan with this blog is to record what I consume everyday and record my weight twice a week after I go to weigh in. No doubt you will also hear about Riley (and how he makes me want to eat cheesecake) and my job (and how it makes me want to eat cheesecake) and the fact that I have not been in a serious relationship since before Ri was born (and how that really really makes me crave cheesecake).

Wednesday 4/24
Breakfast - 1 slice 40 cal bread, 3 oz chedder cheese melted as a sandwich on the GFG
Lunch - Sweet and Spicy tuna (5oz), steamed brussel spouts, naval orange
Dinner - Tendergrill chicken salad from BK with some (more than 40 cals worth) french fries for my carbs, oh, and the pickles off Ri's cheeseburger, and a bite of his burger patty...oi, will do better tommorow